a fingerbreadth betwixt sinking and swelling

My project excavates chasms of uncertainty and individuation, exchanging ideas with the liminal beings dwelling here : amorphous, abstract personas dedicated to searching for invisible answers to insurmountable problems. A few years ago I began exploring my relationship with myself and my ambiguous feelings of home, which progressed into dissectingmy own subconscious and its moments of apprehension.

I’m catching myself wandering, lost amongst familiarity, recalling developmental memories : when I dis-covered the power of the word “hate,” my first memory, - only memorable from a photograph - and when I realized my personal plague: my fear of failing to live up to generations of abstract expectations and implanted ideologies.

I conjoin polaroids of memories, subconscious thoughts and dreams with archival lantern slides, carving, burning, and painting them, forming an amalgamation of the past, the present, and my feelings of the future.